Definitely fallen in too deep

The day when peace shattered.

Read it here on AO3.

And through here to chapter 1, if you were waiting for me to finish.

Reflecting on their relationship apart and together.

Read it here on AO3.

Another visit, and some more confiding in each other.

Read it here on AO3.

Rebuilding their foundation starts by working together on regular tasks.

Read it on AO3 here.

This was definitely an everything is happening kind of a week that was somewhat exhausting on one hand, but on the other I dealt with it a lot better than I did with similar weeks earlier this year. Having more energy is a wonderful thing, and it feeds itself too, since I've managed to get into the rhythm of regular exercise again.

When it comes to writing, I managed pretty much what I attempted. Nothing fancy, but certainly a respectable amount of work done.

I came up with the title to Our Sharp Edges Aligned at the proverbial last minute yesterday, during the final read through of the chapter. The second chapter will hopefully be posted on Tuesday(ish) and all of it will definitely be squeezed out by the 23rd.

I continued my RBB fic, which continues coming along easily, enough so that I'm sort of paranoid of how long it will last. I'm definitely enjoying it now, though. I'm contemplating on giving Steve a cat in it...

Also, is it too early to consider what the holiday (and by this I mean the one at the end of December) fic would be? I found myself thinking of that while on a walk this morning. For the last three years I've done AUs, but I kind of don't have one at the back of my mind right now. I do have a few canon divergent ideas, one of which is pretty rough going. For some reason it amused me to think of choosing that one, "happy holidays here's a bunch of angst" :D It might not work with the twelve chapter thing, though. So no decision, but that's where my head was at today, for some weird reason.

Apparently I forgot to do this last weekend. Oh well, let's cover the two week span then. I had one pretty unproductive (mostly due to external reasons) week, and one reasonably productive week.

I mostly worked on the Cap RBB fic, which is coming along very well. I just sent the draft of the first quarter to my artist, and I have more bits and pieces written as well. It'll be my main writing effort over the coming weeks. I'm glad writing it is fairly easy, I suspect the general energy boost is helping with that, but whatever the reason, I'll take it.

Easily flowing writing is especially welcome, since I've been immersed in my pre-IW fic since the start of the year, and the process with it mostly hasn't been easy or productive. It took entirely too long considering the word count, but the first draft is done \o/, and it's now in editing. First chapter will be out sometime next week, whenever the edits are finished, and I'll post the rest as soon as they're done. I will definitely post all eight chapters before Endgame is out.

It's funny, because the writing was such a drag, it reflected on what I thought of the story. I suspected it was entirely too slow and muddled. However, when I read it, it turned out it actually wasn't as bad as I'd suspected, which lifted my mood considerably, and I'm editing pretty happily now. I still need to come up with a title, the placeholder has been Compromises, but it definitely won't be the final one.

This week was not as productive as I'd hoped (in general it feels like this year just refuses to start, but maybe soon) due to the cold I had already last weekend being hell of a tenacious one. It was not an ideal vacation when it comes to activity, but my stress levels are definitely down, which was the main goal to achieve.

I'm currently puzzling over the outline of my Cap RBB fic. I'm putting more effort on it than I normally do on outlines, because due to the deadlines of the bang and everything else going on I need to know it's not going to run long. I keep getting distracted by writing snippets which may or may not end up in the finished product. I'm laughing by myself at some of the interactions between the characters, and I'm also very much trying to break my own heart with some of the other parts of it, so good times:D

Anyway, I'm aiming at somewhere around 20k with the story, the length can handle the plot I have as long as I'm not getting distracted by tangents (hence the planning), and won't take all of my writing time over the next couple of months to finish it. As it is, it wouldn't be realistic to expect me to be contently working on just one story in the near future. For the first couple of months of this year I worked basically on just one fic, but I'm feeling more creative again, so maybe it'll translate into writing more as well, but it'll definitely mean I will want to work on more stories. For starters, I'm going to want to finish the fic I've been working on soonish while writing the RBB fic.

As of now, the draft of the pre-IW fic is at 34k. I finished chapters six and seven this week, and there's one left to write. It shouldn't be a terribly long one, so the draft will definitely be under 40k, but the finished version might go above.

In addition I continued adding notes to the regular Cap-bang fic as well as one another story that currently exists as an outline. As I said, it definitely feels like my head is kicking out more ideas than it has recently. Maybe it's just that we're finally starting to get some sun for a decent part of a day. I'm definitely solar powered in that I've got more energy when it's lighter.

I'm still working on the same fic I have been since last month, but this week was definitely more productive than any other yet this year. I managed to get a good bit done, including a fairly challenging part of the story, so I'm well satisfied.

It's funny because I've often tended to juggle at least a couple of stories actively in my mind, but recently it's been pretty much just this one. I occasionally do think of the fic that will probably be the Cap BB fic of the year, writing notes on plot points etc, but it's still very much at the back of my head.

Soon there will be another thing actively on my mind though, most likely anyway, since the Cap RBB art is due today and claims are next weekend. Apparently at 5 AM on Sunday my time, fun. At least it's not a case of cutting in on my critical sleeping time, since I'll be on vacation for the next week, so I'll have plenty of time to sleep in. Anyway, unless I run into a complete writer's block with the prompts, I'll be participating in that.

In non-writing news, I started watching Babylon Berlin, and two episodes in it's definitely my jam.

Unsurprisingly this week with four sick days ended up being less than productive. I'm a bit better today but will have to see if I can go to work tomorrow. I might end up working from home, luckily I have a job that gives me the flexibility. Anyway, not very productive writing week, but considering the time I had for it not too bad.

All the work is still going to the pre-IW fic, I'm halfway through chapter five now, and the funniest thing about it is how uneven the chapter lengths have been after a steady start. Ch 1 is 3.7k, ch 2 about the same, a bit shorter, ch 3 is 4.7k and ch 4 is 6.4k. Ch 5 looks to be on the shorter end of scale again. I did consider moving the last section of ch 4 to the beginning of ch 5, it probably would work like that. I'll decide it when I'm editing. By chapter count I'm past halfway, by length I'm hoping the same, although there are a couple of long scenes to come yet.

I also had an amusing thought about Steve, which I'll probably write into a meta post once my brain isn't quite this stuffed. It was inspired by another of my pet peeves, aka the one that manifests with me wanting to yell at the screen, "He's not actually your grandpa." It got me to try and contextualize his age, and like I said, led to a funny thought. More about it hopefully within a couple of days, depending on whether this cold lets go of me.

This week I realized there's a fair chance I'll reach a million words posted on AO3 this year. I've got a bit under 170k to go, which is a 100k less than the stats show for both 2017 and 2018, so the word count is very much reachable. I guess only if I land on a mammoth project that'll take a long time to write and won't get to posting this year might put breaks on it, but it seems fairly likely I'll get to the million words, which is fairly nuts.

To the writing, I'm still working on the pre-IW fic. It's at around 15k now, maybe somewhat under halfway done. It's not the easiest writing process I've ever had, but it's steadily growing.

I also did a bit more for the Cap BB fic, I'll probably work on it steadily over the rest of the winter and spring along with other projects. I'd like to have a finished first draft by the time of claims.