I talk about my fannish interests here, along with other random life stuff.
I'm currently more invested in Captain America than is probably healthy. I'm looking to dip my toes back in the HP pool too. I write fics, and try to regularly rec stuff I like.
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These things have not been the most interesting recently, since I've pretty much been working on one thing, and not that efficiently at that. The documentation is still valuable for me personally, it's interesting to look back how the year went for example, or to try and see if I have seasonal fluctuations. The relatively unproductive winter seems to be a thing, which isn't really a surprise. I tend to get more done as spring advances, and I hope it'll start in a couple of weeks when I'll have a vacation.
I'm still working on the inbetween fic. It has come to a point where they kissed yesterday, so that was something at least. The plot is about to jump on them though, there's another hump on the road that needs to be crossed.
This still doesn't have a title, which low key bugs me. I'm not usually bothered by how I come by the title, sometimes I have it from the start, sometimes it's the last thing I decide, but for some reason I keep coming back to this and there's just nothing.
I think I mentioned before I was thinking of getting a light therapy device? I actually did last week, but I suppose I'll have to wait a bit longer to see the actual effect, the illness after all made me tired anyway. I do think I've been more awake during the morning commute, so maybe it does sort of help.
The replacement E key arrived for my keyboard, which means I'm typing about a quarter faster again since I don't have to pause and slide it back into place every time I forget to be careful:D Anyway, if you happen to have a single broken key, don't believe them when the pros say you'll need to change the whole keyboard, it was very easy fix and cost me under ten dollars plus about half an hour of effort (25 minutes for the google search and ordering, five minutes for the replacement), rather than the two hundred a pro fix would have.
And I also got tickets for Captain Marvel today, so things are definitely looking up.
All the work is still going to the pre-IW fic, I'm halfway through chapter five now, and the funniest thing about it is how uneven the chapter lengths have been after a steady start. Ch 1 is 3.7k, ch 2 about the same, a bit shorter, ch 3 is 4.7k and ch 4 is 6.4k. Ch 5 looks to be on the shorter end of scale again. I did consider moving the last section of ch 4 to the beginning of ch 5, it probably would work like that. I'll decide it when I'm editing. By chapter count I'm past halfway, by length I'm hoping the same, although there are a couple of long scenes to come yet.
I also had an amusing thought about Steve, which I'll probably write into a meta post once my brain isn't quite this stuffed. It was inspired by another of my pet peeves, aka the one that manifests with me wanting to yell at the screen, "He's not actually your grandpa." It got me to try and contextualize his age, and like I said, led to a funny thought. More about it hopefully within a couple of days, depending on whether this cold lets go of me.
Anyway, WicDiv is a comic I love a lot (look, I even capped an icon for it), and definitely recommend reading, if the concept is something you're interested in. Their blurb from the website as follows:
Every ninety years, twelve gods incarnate as humans. They are loved. They are hated. In two years, they are dead. Welcome to THE WICKED + THE DIVINE, where gods are the ultimate pop stars. But remember: just because you’re immortal, doesn’t mean you’re going to live forever.Like I said it's at the final arc after beginning in 2014, there are four issues to go and the last one should be out in June, so it's a pretty good time to jump in and read the previous 41 (+ 6 specials).
However, I'll also advice that it's rated M for reasons that are mostly more sinister than just dicks (although there is a scene involving a couple of happy ones), if it were a fic there'd be a whole bunch of content warnings, and definitely archive warnings for graphic violence and MCD (incidentally, I'll be happy to talk more about these with anyone who's interested but cautious).
The reasons why I love it are plentiful, including very good writing by Kieron Gillen, very good story for that matter, beautiful art by Jamie McKelvie and Matt Wilson (yes I'm including the colorist, because that's a big reason why the comic is so great), a diverse cast when it comes to both ethnicity as well as gender and sexual identity, and that all of this is handled in a very thoughtful manner, without judgment or putting people on pedestal, they're all just people (who happen to get divine powers for two years). Kieron Gillen often says it's a comic of problematic people doing problematic things, and this is a prime example of the principle that depicting isn't endorsement, they're also called out for the problematic stuff within the text. Also it just keeps getting better, it started very well, but the scope of the story is quite staggering, and it could have collapsed on itself if handled less well, but it all sticks together.
I also took a look into fandom, and was surprised there are less than 150 fics on AO3. Obviously the amount of readers is nothing like a popular tv show or such, but that still seemed a small number, considering the canon itself is so fascinating and diverse.
I was even more surprised there were lest than ten fics of Baal/Inanna (Inanna is in my icon btw), because their story of canonical love and the very well depicted complications is usually catnip to ficcers. The surprise lasted about two seconds before I remembered fandom tends to be racist and this is two men of color, so. I almost feel like it's my duty to add to that number, and I even might, although only after the comic has ended.
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In other news I have a cold that's moved to the part where every muscle in my body aches, ugh.
Why is Steve (and occasionally Bucky as a package deal, but more often it seems to be just Steve) so often treated in fics like he isn't a fully functioning adult capable of making his own decisions?
I'm always annoyed when he is just sort of part of the Avengers rather that in the lead, because he would want to be part of making the decisions, but when it stretches to the rest of his life? Even more annoying. I've seen stuff like others picking his clothes as a routine, choosing his apartment and decoration, organizing his social calendar etc. And I get it's hard to draw the line between helping (because he does need support and I love found family stories where it's functioning and mutual) and just hijacking his life like he's a child, but the latter is unfortunately common.
Very common seems to be someone, usually Pepper, confiscating his twitter account, and I'm always like, he's not in your charge nor is he your employee, what right do you have? He has a right to be stupid on internet if he wants to, and frankly, I don't think he'd be as prone to getting into pointless flame wars as he's portrayed. CATFA makes it pretty clear he's fully capable of restraining himself when there's no point in blowing up (look at the training montage, the others bully him relentlessly and he just takes it bc there's nothing to win by protesting).
Further more, what makes people think Steve would go for any of that? We know he used to want to get by on his own before the war and had a chip on his shoulder the size of contiguous US about it, that just doesn't go away, and so the way he just maybe mildly grumbles about the above stuff just doesn't work for me.
In other news, the Steve centric Endgame trailers are raising my hopes, and I'm trying to push it away because I'd love for the movie to have Steve in its heart the way Avengers movies so far haven't, but I just don't want to be disappointed.
Also I'm going to have to find a place to camp at for the afternoon, I've been working from home due to an afternoon meeting (which was supposed to be much closer to home than office), but it was cancelled. However, we'll have the water cut off for the afternoon, so I'll still have to go, bc I need my afternoon coffee. I guess I'll go see about the workspaces in our new central library.
I've been considering getting a bright light device, and see if it would help with the general lack of energy that comes with the lack of light. It's not too bad for me, but really, why struggle even with stuff that's not too serious if there's something that can help. Now I just have to get to the store, the one that sells them with the lowest price is a bit out of the way for me.
Anyway, the bit that I worked on was for the pre-IW story, and the chapters are getting longer. It's still a bit bizarre writing experience, in that I really like the story, but the process isn't easy compared to some others. Guess well see how it reflects on quality when the draft is done and I'll get to reading it for the edits.
We have about half a meter of snow now, which compared to many places is not that much, but a lot more than we've had here in several years. I prefer it like this, even when it's kind of inconvenient right now because a lot of it came over a week, and the city was built before there were as many cars as nowadays, so the space is an issue before they've managed to cart all the piles away. We're about to get more over the weekend again.
And I'm currently writing less for technical reasons, the letter E is loose on my keyboard, so it kind of cramps my style. I ordered a replacement, but for now it's a bit of pain. Although I'll have my work laptop with me over the weekend, I might just write with that.
To the writing, I'm still working on the pre-IW fic. It's at around 15k now, maybe somewhat under halfway done. It's not the easiest writing process I've ever had, but it's steadily growing.
I also did a bit more for the Cap BB fic, I'll probably work on it steadily over the rest of the winter and spring along with other projects. I'd like to have a finished first draft by the time of claims.
Anyway, it's been nice to have him, even when I have slept less because his nighttime walkabouts. He'll go back home to my sister sometime next week, unless something unexpected happens and there's still stuff that needs to be done in her new apartment.
We are having a proper winter in southern Finland this year, which I like much better than the last few years when we barely had any snow, and what we had lasted only days at a time. It's so much lighter and prettier now, and temperatures below freezing are much easier to dress for than the just above zero and raining.
My first book of the year was to read Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell again, I'd read it once before several years ago. I like a lot about that book, especially the world building and style (which is probably divisive, for me the meandering works with this story), but there are also things that annoy me about it. For one, it's impossible to disregard that it preaches one thing and practices other; a fairly significant theme in the book is that you should respect the agency of women and people of color, and yet all the characters that actually have any agency are white men.
Moving on, I'm doing research for the HP story I'm hopefully going to finally write, which means rereading all the HP books. I'm in the middle of the Chamber of Secrets right now, it's been years since I last read them (I revisited the series as a whole fairly soon after the Deathly Hallows was released, but not since), and it's curious to see what I retain and what I've forgotten. The plot is familiar, but many details come as a surprise, same with the style somewhat.
I did remember everyone was mad at people more than I was really comfortable with, but the reasons seem more ludicrous than I remembered, and the scale of people's reactions completely blown out of proportion sometimes. Not to mention that every single adult in Harry's life is letting him down by leaving him at Dursleys, which I thought even before this reread, it just strikes me very strongly again. On the good side, the things I enjoyed before I very much still do, the richness of the magical world, and the potentials in it, as well as the compelling characters, which were the reasons that called me to write for the fandom in the first place. It's all still there, and reading the books is strengthening my resolve to write the post-war fic.
* Tattoos: No.
I advanced the same pre-IW WIP as last week, finished chapter two and got about halfway through chapter three. I also refined the outline, added some details, and as a result, it now looks like it'll be eight chapters rather than seven like I said last week.
It's also funny to think of the reverse big bang, in that I'll be writing something for it starting March, and yet I obviously can't do any sort of planning for it. I was kind of itching to do something, though, so I started the outline for my regular big bang fic. I decided already last fall the overall idea for it, and was just waiting to clear my schedule enough to start it. No actual writing done yet, but it's in the works.
I'm currently catsitting for my sister, she's moving and there'll be final renovations done at her apartment over the next week, so it's better that her cat can be somewhere not stressful. He was a rescue, so he's had quite enough of stress for lifetime already, and he likes it fine at my place. Here's a photo of him relaxing earlier today.
Yesterday we found out we'll be moving to a new office building at the end of this year. It was pretty much expected, our company has been growing and we're running out of space, but it's still something to get used to. The setting of the new building is definitely a downgrade (it's right next to a big intersection, while we're now at a relatively quiet area), and the building itself isn't as nice as ours. They're currently renovating it, so at least it can be made as suitable as possible for us.
Biggest thing is my commute will be significantly longer (going from 35 minutes to 55 minutes) than it is now, but on the other hand I've been kind of thinking of moving (to a nicer apartment in a good environment), and the biggest quibble I had was the extra commute time. After the office move it would be about the same from the new area compared to where I live now, so the problem kind of got eliminated. Guess I'll look at apartments with a renewed vigor:D
James Buchanan Barnes and Steve Grant Rogers arrive at the Jedi Temple just over twelve months apart.
Might as well c/p my responses here as well, considering how new this blog is still in practice.
Names I go by: stellahibernis but stella for short if you feel like it.
Other Places I Can Be Found:
Twitter: stellahibernis (literally created just now, I figured I might as well)
Tumblr: stellahibernis (annoyed but I am still there...)
The fannish platform(s) I am most active on is/are: I'm aiming to be active(ish) on all, though more passively on tumblr going forward, DW will probably be the most comprehensive
My main contribution(s) to fandom is/are: Writing fic, and I try to regularly rec stuff I like
Link(s) to my Masterlist(s): For now just go to my AO3, it's manageable.
Fandom(s) I enjoy: MCU is the only one I'm currently active in, I'll probably write for HP again, and rest is more passive
My favorite people/characters in this/these fandom(s) are: In MCU Steve first, then Bucky, Nat, Sam, Shuri, Wanda, Peggy etc.
Pairing(s)/grouping(s) I ship within this/these fandom(s) is/are: Stucky (and Drarry in HP)
I post/want to post mostly about: About fandom related stuff mostly, writing updates, meta post,s and just general musings, also probably what I've read and randomly whatever strikes my fancy