Definitely fallen in too deep

Captain America Reverse Big Bang Collaboration with art by Madara_Nycteris




Here's the fruit of our collaboration for the Cap RBB! For me it was a great experience and fun to come up with the story for the beautiful art.

Well, this week turned out to be pretty much a wash due to not sleeping well, which rather sapped my energy, but I did manage a regular amount last night, so maybe it gets better (I suspect part of it was the first few hotter days we had, it always takes me a while to get used to).

I did another round of edits for the Cap RBB fic, just polishing it at this point. I'll allow myself one more read-through over the next week, and then it'll be good to go.

That was mostly it, I added some notes on my Endgame thing and the fic that I'll write for the usual order Cap bang. Three free days next week, so that'll give me significantly more potential time to write. Whether it'll be used for writing remains to be seen I suppose.

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In other news my sister gave me yarn that was a mix of blues, pinks and purples, aka very bi-colors, she knows well what I like:D

Well, I'm really glad I got at least one very significant deadline put behind me at work on Friday, even when this spring is probably not easing up that much moving forward.

The draft of my Cap RBB fic is now completely finished, the one incomplete scene I mentioned last week ballooned into nearly four thousand words (they kept talking instead of getting into bed like I was trying to have them do :D), but that too is now finished. Word count went just over 25k, which is more than I aimed for but not terribly so, so I'm good. My beta says there are no major plot problems with it, just the usual polishing, which is even better.

It also has a title now! As predicted it was a wrestle, I spent one evening's worth of writing time trying to put ideas on paper and not liking any of my initial tries until I came at it from a different direction and found it. It's The Irrefutable Constant of Our Lives. Our posting date is June 8th, so plenty of time yet to obsessively work it over (Let's do yet another read through, she said to herself etc.)

I also kept thinking of the Endgame-related thing, I'm going back and forth on some stuff as usually happens at this point. No writing on it done yet, but I might start next week, depending on how my week turns out. 

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I've actually read only one Endgame related fic so far, and that probably won't change too much moving forward. Mostly because the idea for my own story is very clear for me, and if I were to read fics set around the movie I'd start second guessing whenever someone came close to my idea, and I'd rather not wrestle with that.

Apparently I forgot to do one last Sunday, I guess it was the long weekend that confused me of days. In the meanwhile I've actually managed a pretty respectable amount of writing, especially considering the generally busy life.

The pre-IW fic Our Sharp Edges Aligned is all the way finished, the last chapter was posted on Monday, aka a whole day before my self-set deadline:D

I've also continued working on the Cap RBB fic, which is nearing completion, and continues to be remarkably painless to write. It still doesn't have a title, so I guess all the struggling quota is set on that. I'll be hopefully finished by this time next week.

I also have fifteen hundred words (some outline, some snippets of dialogue etc.) of a story that's inspired by Endgame. It's of the flavor, "This thing makes no sense if you think of it even for half a second, so let's write something that'll make more sense." That one does have a working title, which I suspect is fairly likely to be the final title too. After seeing the movie on Wednesday I read issue 43 of the Wicked + the Divine (which incidentally is also nearing the end), and inspired by that the title for now at least is Once Again We Return. I have a solid grasp of the whole plot, and will probably keep adding detail as they pop in my head, but I'm not going to start the writing before I've finished the RBB fic.

I wrote about three thousand words today, which was certainly something. On the other hand, that was something like 85% of the word count for the whole week, so the total wasn't that staggering. Multiple reasons for it, chief among them being busy at work. The four day weekend over Easter should give me some more time for writing, but that'll be balanced somewhat by the fact that I feel like I'll have the workload of five days that need to be done by Thursday, so maybe not that much opportunity/energy to write before next Friday.

All the writing was for the Cap RBB fic, which keeps coming along nicely. I'm not worried for the timeline of writing it, the deadline is well in hand and I'm happy.

Besides the writing, I continued editing Our Sharp Edges Aligned, and chapters 2 and three 3 went out this week. Even if writing will be a challenge over the work week, I'm definitely aiming to get at least chapter four polished and out during it. In all likelihood it'll be Wednesday at the earliest, but it's progressing well enough that the whole thing will still be finished on the 23rd at the latest.

Apparently I forgot to do this last weekend. Oh well, let's cover the two week span then. I had one pretty unproductive (mostly due to external reasons) week, and one reasonably productive week.

I mostly worked on the Cap RBB fic, which is coming along very well. I just sent the draft of the first quarter to my artist, and I have more bits and pieces written as well. It'll be my main writing effort over the coming weeks. I'm glad writing it is fairly easy, I suspect the general energy boost is helping with that, but whatever the reason, I'll take it.

Easily flowing writing is especially welcome, since I've been immersed in my pre-IW fic since the start of the year, and the process with it mostly hasn't been easy or productive. It took entirely too long considering the word count, but the first draft is done \o/, and it's now in editing. First chapter will be out sometime next week, whenever the edits are finished, and I'll post the rest as soon as they're done. I will definitely post all eight chapters before Endgame is out.

It's funny, because the writing was such a drag, it reflected on what I thought of the story. I suspected it was entirely too slow and muddled. However, when I read it, it turned out it actually wasn't as bad as I'd suspected, which lifted my mood considerably, and I'm editing pretty happily now. I still need to come up with a title, the placeholder has been Compromises, but it definitely won't be the final one.

This week was not as productive as I'd hoped (in general it feels like this year just refuses to start, but maybe soon) due to the cold I had already last weekend being hell of a tenacious one. It was not an ideal vacation when it comes to activity, but my stress levels are definitely down, which was the main goal to achieve.

I'm currently puzzling over the outline of my Cap RBB fic. I'm putting more effort on it than I normally do on outlines, because due to the deadlines of the bang and everything else going on I need to know it's not going to run long. I keep getting distracted by writing snippets which may or may not end up in the finished product. I'm laughing by myself at some of the interactions between the characters, and I'm also very much trying to break my own heart with some of the other parts of it, so good times:D

Anyway, I'm aiming at somewhere around 20k with the story, the length can handle the plot I have as long as I'm not getting distracted by tangents (hence the planning), and won't take all of my writing time over the next couple of months to finish it. As it is, it wouldn't be realistic to expect me to be contently working on just one story in the near future. For the first couple of months of this year I worked basically on just one fic, but I'm feeling more creative again, so maybe it'll translate into writing more as well, but it'll definitely mean I will want to work on more stories. For starters, I'm going to want to finish the fic I've been working on soonish while writing the RBB fic.

As of now, the draft of the pre-IW fic is at 34k. I finished chapters six and seven this week, and there's one left to write. It shouldn't be a terribly long one, so the draft will definitely be under 40k, but the finished version might go above.

In addition I continued adding notes to the regular Cap-bang fic as well as one another story that currently exists as an outline. As I said, it definitely feels like my head is kicking out more ideas than it has recently. Maybe it's just that we're finally starting to get some sun for a decent part of a day. I'm definitely solar powered in that I've got more energy when it's lighter.

I'm still working on the same fic I have been since last month, but this week was definitely more productive than any other yet this year. I managed to get a good bit done, including a fairly challenging part of the story, so I'm well satisfied.

It's funny because I've often tended to juggle at least a couple of stories actively in my mind, but recently it's been pretty much just this one. I occasionally do think of the fic that will probably be the Cap BB fic of the year, writing notes on plot points etc, but it's still very much at the back of my head.

Soon there will be another thing actively on my mind though, most likely anyway, since the Cap RBB art is due today and claims are next weekend. Apparently at 5 AM on Sunday my time, fun. At least it's not a case of cutting in on my critical sleeping time, since I'll be on vacation for the next week, so I'll have plenty of time to sleep in. Anyway, unless I run into a complete writer's block with the prompts, I'll be participating in that.

In non-writing news, I started watching Babylon Berlin, and two episodes in it's definitely my jam.