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My notes:
Author’s summary:
“Holy shit,” Howard says, crackling through the speakers. “You alive in there?” Lying is a sin, of course, but Steve’s not sure what else he can do. He’s already lied to the government and Bucky and God Almighty; and himself, himself most of all. He ought to tell the truth. That he’s not quite what they hoped for. That perhaps they should put him back into the ocean.
“Probably,” he says, instead, listening to Howard’s tinny laughter; and waits for the blast doors to unlock.
Words: 152138, Chapters: 32/32
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Categories: F/M, M/M
Characters: Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter, Howard Stark, Gabe Jones, James “Bucky” Barnes, Jim Morita, Timothy “Dum Dum” Dugan, Winifred Barnes, Heimdall (Marvel)
Relationships: James “Bucky” Barnes/Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter & Steve Rogers, Peggy Carter/Gabe Jones
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Canon Divergence - Captain America: The Winter Soldier, Canon-Typical Violence, Self-Esteem Issues, The Tesseract (Marvel), ptsd themes, Weirdness, Watchmen References if You Squint, Steve Comes Back Different, Hospitals, Gore, Medical Procedures, Anxiety, Sexual Content, Explicit Sexual Content, Period Typical Attitudes, Hydra (Marvel), Suicidal Ideation, Implied/Referenced Torture, Past Torture, Self-Harm, References to Period-Typical Homophobia, Surprise Asgard, Not Really Character Death
My notes:
If you haven’t for some reason read this yet, run don’t walk. And if you have, a revisit is not a bad idea. I just completely love this story, the premise is so intriguing, and the character work excellent.